My Heart Wants To Say...

Grade 10 :: This was the first time wen i saw her.She came up to our school for the very first time.She

was beautiful,charming and damn cute!!She was very new to me and my classroom as well.She was sitting right next to me. I wanted to befriends with her 4eva..I know i loved her and it was love at first sight.Oh! I loved her and wanted to tell her but she did not notice me. I loved her from inner core of my heart but i was shy...i dunno why?

Grade 11 :: This was the time wen she and i had turned up 2 b gud friends.She came up to me after school and shared notes wid me.She kissed me on my right cheek and said," ur my best friend!" Then she went away. I loved her but she did not notice me.I wanted to tell her but i was shy...i dunno why?

Grade 12 :: This day she had a fight wid her boyfriend and she called me up..to her place. I went there and saw her weeping buckets..i almost died at dat sight!..I sympathised..Soon she felt fine.We passed our time by watching a movie and eating a big bag of chips.I went and she said,"thanx!" You are my best friend and kissed me on my right cheek! now i did not ...wanted to be just friends..but...I loved her but she did not notice me.I wanted to tell her but i was shy...i dunno why?

Graduation Day :: We got graduated and still she looked the same as pretty as eva! I loved to see her smile. I loved every move she made. On graduation day she wore a black coat and a nice black scholar hat...with a nice golden ringlets hanging loose on her shoulder. Her green eyes..sparkling as eva! I loved her but she thaught of me- a good friend!..I loved her but she never noticed me and i was shy...i dunno why?

At The Ball :: Till thid time we had decided to meet each other as soon as possible..to keep this friendship alive.We used to meet but not as often as i would have desired.We danced that night boozed a lot..she kissed me on my right cheek and said u r d best buddy!..my best friend!.but i loved her and wanted to confess...but i was shy i dunno why?

On Her Wedding :: Yes, unbelievable but she was getting married! Not to me..but to her boyfriend. She looked sooo beautiful! He was a lucky man! He was getting married to her >"< .She was askes by the priest if she accepted him as her husband..?..my heart sank..surprising but true..she looked down for quite a long while..priest repeated the question..she looked at him..den straight into my eyes..i felt uncomfortable..gave an artificial smile and lowered my eyes..and den she said "YES"..i was half dead..The priest repeated those questions for the groom..i assumed myself and said "yes" to awl f dem n my mind..i no it sound silly but it gave me hellota relief!.believe me!!<">...i still liked her and wanted to marry her but i was shy...i dunno why?

End :: She expired!*sob* I could not believe this!! I felt helpless..mind blanked out!..heart missed a beat..forehead decorated with tiny droplets of sweat..finally i fell in my couch and cried a ten ten thousand tears!..I went for her death ceremony. The priest said the prayers for her soul to rest in peace. I did not pay attention to the prayers for i was still recovering from the shock of my life! My mind was still roaming about her memories..Soon the priest opened her secret diary and started reading-Suddenly the chain of thaughts broke and i listened..to him.
"This diary belongs toa great lady , to a very lovely lady...This page states that she loved someone.

It says- since the first day of my school till the end moment of my life..I loved him and he was my best friend..so kind..nice..lovely..handsome..the best! I loved to sit with him on the first day of my school and all the grades from 10-12. I wanted that this page should be read out after i die. I loved him and he cosoled me,when i broke up with my boyfriend, HE was the only guy i called up to. I have always loved him but...I was shy...i dunno why?...i dunno why?
"It takes a second to have a crush on someone...
A minute to like someone...
An hour to love someone...
But it takes a lifetime to forget someome!!..