stranger in my life..

I have been so happy luvin u.. u gave me d best u cud nd yeah sumtimz evn mre dan u cud.. most awf awl u make me experience d true.exotic.addictive.supportive .unconditional.real luv.. err..ever imagine cn nybdy really luv d way v do..d way v goin to?. thy eternal luv is awl I need 2 survive.live.breathe.exist. n experience d power f ya luv n evry second I breathe.. i still recall d first day “ I had a stranger in my life.” hw I got a stranger in my life nd since den our luv has grown Citius, altius, fortius !!*heartiest thnxie to ma amigos fr dis*..well.. I started livin fr dat special sumone..i started depending on dat stranger 2 survive..to have his company n thick n thin of ma life..dat same strangerz hand n mine 4eva..itz awl jst like yesterday..to hear dose special 3 words from dat stranger to get thru d day.. nd I agree luvin d stranger wasn’t a mistake..nd yeah if dey call dis a mistake I swear I wud commit it over and over again..i wud repeat it fr d rest awf ma lyf..nd awl d lives I have after dis one..u always make me feel perfect though I no m nt..u make me feel d power of our special luv.. n now u have touchd ma hrt n touched ma soul..every now I go to sleep I jst cnt stop dreamin about you..ur love has gt me feeling kinda weak..nw I really can't see me without you..nd now you're runnin' round in my head..I'm never gonna let you slip away again.. n if m askin u to hold me tight swear itz gonna b all night!..in ya armz I finaly breathe rap me up n ur luv itz d oxygen I need..oh baby it dusnt realy matter until m in luv wid u nd u wid me..happy together forever nd always..

“Life is not worth living till you have someone to die for..
And life is not worth dying till you have someone to live for!!”

P.S. – n doubtlessly dis life is not worth dying till I have ‘him’ to live for!!

hez a reason fr teardrops on ma pillow..

Err.. all I remember, it was late afternun it lasted 4eva but ended so soon.. I learnt sumfing dat nw I must live wid everyday-d pain plausibly I put u thru..we wre all by ourself lukin at d dark green grass wen I felt ur pain- d pain no1 will find and all ur feelings so deep inside wz dat den I realizd dat 4eva wz n ur eyes d moment I saw u cry..i fink I jst saw u cry..by nw I hv seen u cry seen u smile..itz jst lke I hv spent a lyf tym wid u..till nw we hd evryfing d world is lukin fr..nd I heard d laugh dat was overrated I jst pray it gets better as we move on..all f ur hopin & all f ur searchin fr wat ask fr me wat m livng n wat gvz me strength nd m wilin 2 die fr..cuz nt a single thingz gonna solve nyfing tonight..bth feel so helpless..was our luv like sea waves nd shore meant 2 b together bt drez sumfing dat is jst nt in our hands?..wish I cud shed d thoughts f u dat hv becum ma skin jst hv a luk @ d afflicted live burnz beneath m bleedin..n all d tym I walk thru dese doubts n ma mind..save ma soul- so cold frm fear..well I cnt 4gt dis evnin n ur face wen u wre leavin bt I guess dats d way d story goz..u always smiled bt n ur eyes ur sorrow shows yes it shows..well I cnt 4gt tommorw wen I fink abt ma sorrow I had u dre wen i let u go nly fact i shud let u no wat u shud really no iz I cnt live ah! nay a sec, if livin iz widout u..

I feel so lonely n different here..i was so used 2 being next to u..dis lyf fr me iz jst nt d same..miss u so bad I cnt sleep..need 2 cum bak 2 me straight in ma arms cuz man u made hard 2 breathe..ouu u aren’t wid me..i neva really thaught I wud need u dre wen I cry..days feel like years wen m alone& d night cumes nd I feel relevd cuz I gt a day closer 2 my deathbed..bt all dis wunt take away my luv..i hv started findin comfrt n pain ..and wen d last day comez & wen itz awl said n dun beliv it wunt tke away ma luv..d way evrybdy i called my own treat me is nt worth living for & if it continues i might nt live longer so evry tym u hold me- hold me like dis is d last tym promise me evry tym u’ll kiss me- kiss me like u wil neva c me again..nd nw wid out u wid me..n ma thoughts in ma dreams u hv taken ova me itz ike m nt me..m hooked on 2 u..m in a fix, I cnt take it dis loneliness jst consumes me n maims my lyf..m hanging between d longing 2 hold u again m caught n ya shadow..my memory divides d thornes frm d roses & its u n d roses..i sumtymz wonder f he noz hez all I fink abt @ night..n if I get sum sleep I cnt stop dreamin abt ya.. ur far nd itz really hard m misin u wanna b whr u r..bt dese milion miles jst stand b/w us.. it may seem I hv evryfing bt evyrfing meanz nufin..sumtimz lonliness is a part f me..take it bak take it all bak now d fingz I gave lke taste f ma kiss n ya lips I miss dat nw..I cnt try ny harder dan I do all d reasonz I gave fr u m broken in2 all d fingz left undiscovered dey leave me empty n 2 wander..dunt walk away..touch me wid ur healing touch hw I long 2 feel sumfing so real plz remind me ma luv n take me bak cuz m so in luv wid wat v wre m nt breathin m suffoc8tin widout u..drez million reasonz y I cry cuz I wanna b n luv again..shut d doorz n close ma eyes fr no i longer wish 2 c d world whu hatches conspiracy 2 separate d inseparable us..dey tuk u away frm me..ma hrt is crippled by d pain dat I keep on hidin..gve me a reason 2 open my eyes..
And I no I let u hv all d power..all d miles dat separate us disapr nw wen m dreamn f ya face..nd itz u whose d closest inside ma lonely mind.. evn nw evryfing dat I do remindz me f u and d used to bez..i cn hadly breathe need u feel u hre wid me..I just wanna u 2 no its true:
wen ur gone pieces f ma hrt missin u..but guess gotta learn 2 live wid dese pieces 4eva gone 4eva u d fights are all I experience nd d changes is all I c..i wunt say u changed or so did I fr dat matter..cuz to me ur still d human I luvd spiritually wid 1 body nd soul..i dunt complain u changed cuz I luved d inner you d man beneath d apparent u nd nt ur qualities..and as I no qualities change behaviour changes bt d human remains d same..so indeed unlike odrz I luved d inner soul nd nt d qualities perhaps m still at d recievin end?..*burst in2 tearz*